• Desha

My First Sober Birthday... and Today.


Eight years ago, I was just shy of two months sober. Two days shy, to be exact. I spent my birthday at work, then went to a meeting to be around people that understood me, and I was starting to understand them, and addiction on some level. I felt great about myself, and didn't really feel like drinking, which was such a miracle, in itself. When someone at the meeting mentioned that it was my birthday, everyone clapped and ended up singing to me. I got so bright red, I think you could have fried an egg on my face. lol I was also reminded how great I'd feel waking up the next morning, and how I'd actually remember what I did. I was in the right place, surrounded by good people who could help me and believe in me, because I sure as heck couldn't help myself. I was surrounded by Love. It felt great to have that Gift on my birthday- that Gift of sobriety, great people in my life who genuinely wanted to see me succeed, with no hidden motive or any kind of manipulation or control. They wanted me to become the person that I was meant to be, not what someone else wanted me to be. Today was great, overall. I got up, got on my knees first thing (which I had started again the past few days- I had stopped for a while), went down and had my time with Bella, then went and saw the sunrise with my girl. We went to church and participated, again. Sang two great songs that I love so much- "Abide With Me", and "One Thing Remains". Bella got to see her Grammy who visited for a bit after church. I love when Bella is so happy. That's such a joy and Gift to see, and to be able to help give her that. I was privileged to take some portraits for a senior this afternoon, then went to a church dinner, where they had one of Bella's favorites- baked chicken. I was surrounded by great people there, great and uplifting and wholesome conversation, as well. It's so great to be around people that lift you up, just as you are, and will accept what you have to offer, as well. We ended with a nice walkie, and enjoyed a beautiful sunset sky as we walked. I didn't take the camera, but just enjoyed the sky, and enjoyed Bella. And yesterday, I received a beautiful flower bouquet from a very special man in my life. It was such a nice surprise. Clean & sober life- is a great life. Don't get me wrong- there are tons of challenges, but those challenges are pretty much there, anyway. The difference is, that I can experience them to the fullest, try to hit them head-on, I don't have to drown out emotions, and I am free from the bondage of addiction, and free from so much more. Now I'm going to make some tea and park on the couch with Bella for a bit. I love her so much. I'm so tired, and grateful that I'm tired from the blessing of this day. Jesus in my life has made all the difference, and I'm so thankful for Him and what He has so freely given us. Thank You so, so much, God, and for the good and positive people in my life. I can only hope I am that for someone, as well. I'm usually more quiet about my birthday, but felt I should share about sobriety with it. It can be tough for so many, to get through a birthday without any substance. It's not such a bad thing. In fact, it's pretty darn amazing! And it can be done. This scene was taken at Old Orchard Beach in Maine, after a phenomenal color in the sky. I remember someone's post on here even said, "The sky is purple". It was surreal, and even as the sun came up, you can still see color like no other. One of the best ones I think I had witnessed in a long time, if not ever. Feel free to contact me for prints or for use of the photo. Feel free to share. Enjoy!



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