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But for the Grace of God...



But for the Grace of God... This morning, went to Pine Point for a bit to shoot. It was such a beautiful morning- lower humidity, some sun, some shade, some clouds. We were there around 10:30. There was a man there, who I heard using some foul language inside the Co-op there, but I just ignored it, but he then came out and yelled over to me, as I was walking toward the beach area there, that "you can take some pictures over there, honey". I said thank you, and kept going in the direction I was going. Later, as I was photographing from one of the walkways there, I noticed him again on the walkway right next to where I was (they are literally side by side, and you can walk from one to the other. He asked me a few questions, and I answered. I noticed his eyes were really, really red, and he had a bottle in his hand. He was drinking, and was well on his way to being drunk, if he wasn't, already. I actually felt badly for him. I knew what that was like, once. I was doing the same thing, literally. As I walked off of the walkway, all I could think of was to say something. So I took a few steps back, and out of my mouth came, "I haven't had a drink in over 8 years. There's help out there if you ever want it." I usually don't do that. I don't want to be intrusive. But I said it. Perhaps I was prompted from above, but he engaged in the conversation a bit. He told me a few things about his circumstances. I don't know what was true and what wasn't, but that's not up to me to decide. I just listened and engaged a little bit, and then left to meet up with someone else. He ended up coming back around to me a few times, and it got to be a little much for me. He was being complimentary and just kind of a bit much. I reminded him once more that there is help if he wants it. He said, "with what?" Who knows what he thought I meant. We talked about the area and pictures for a few minutes, too. Maybe he already forgot, too. So I just said, "with the bottle" as I pointed to his. I said to the person I met up with, that I felt so badly for him. I also said that I'm so glad to not be living that way anymore. I feel selfish saying that, in a way, but it's not a bad thing to remember where we've been, to where we are now, and what God has done in our lives, and how we can use it to another's advantage. Remembering (but not dwelling) has helped me with compassion toward another sick and suffering alcoholic and addict, and so many other types of things in people, out there. I know addiction stems from other issues, and the booze and drugs are just symptoms of an internal and mental sickness, that becomes physical. As we were finishing up at that area, I heard some of the guys from the place there saying something about getting him home. I had to walk away from him (he approached me once again) and tell him I'm leaving and to have a good day, as I was headed toward the car. I really hope he realizes there's a way out. So many could use the help. So many need it. But it really is for those who want it. We never know what may bring a person to that point. We never know if someone will get there, and when it will happen, if so. I selfishly am grateful to be on a different path in life, now. I never really cared for the phrase, "But for the Grace of God, there go I". I feel it's at someone else's expense when it's said, because it's usually said when you see someone else struggling. But at the same time, I see it as more of a statement of compassion, in some sense. I also now believe that it is really meant to show how God's grace can and is working in our lives, and has been. Only by His Grace, was I able to find a way out of that life. And I hope that by the Grace of God, others do, too. Man, it's crazy to think that I was drinking by 8:30 some mornings. Many mornings. And now, I am out with Bella, enjoying what we are given day to day, and trying my best to be able to care for her. Now here we are, on a Friday night. I'm in jammies, drinking peach tea, writing to you, and am ready for bed shortly. Bellsie was a bit slower today, but we were on a trail this afternoon. She really seemed to enjoy it. She met doggies on the trail, and on the beach today. Sometimes I don't know if I'm reading her right, and caring for her as she needs. I just have to trust that I am, and doing my best for her. I do believe she does know that, and speaks to me in so many ways. I hope I hear her, right! I just love her. She is sleeping right now. And thank you all for the continued support for her. This is a photo taken today at Pine Point. I used a tripod for this, took 2 photos where I focused on two different places in the scene, and put them together in Photoshop. This allows for most of the photo being in focus. I probably could have done 3 pictures, as many do, but I'm really happy with how this turned out. Please feel free to share. Please contact me for prints or for use of the photo, too. Enjoy!


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