Updated: Jun 23, 2020
On Friday's, I have to drive someone to an appointment up by where I worked years ago. It's a big biologics corporation. It's like it's own little town with so many buildings, and they even have shuttles there to transport people to different buildings. I was in sales. I had traveled all over the US and into Canada twice, as well, in that position.
I had gotten terminated from this place due to my addiction. I was missing a lot of work, coming in late. I made excuses all the time. I was sick all the time, even while there, so I'm sure I wasn't performing up to par.
I had been in rehab 3 times while I was there, and let it be known to some that I had that particular struggle. I would get randomly tested. By the end of that part of my life, I had to report in when I got there with an email, I was questioned a lot and one particular manager didn't make it easy, with little derogatory actions and statements here and there. I kept quiet.
I brought this on. The sickness that I had brought all this on. This sickness worked through me and I did things I can't even imagine doing today.
When I was about 3 years free from alcoholism/addiction, I saw an opened sales position at this company- the exact position I had. I applied with a note acknowledging what had happened, and then also acknowledging my sobriety. As soon as I hit the "apply" button, I immediately knew I didn't want to go back there. I didn't want to go back to that level of a corporation, and I didn't want to go back to that same stuff. I liked the job to a degree, but I also was working my way out of the corporate world. I didn't quite realize it at the time, but I just knew it wasn't for me.
My life was changing. My perspective was changing. My heart was changing.
When I drive by there, I am reminded how grateful I am to not be there, and how grateful I am to be on a different path, and I'm grateful that getting terminated from there helped get me in a direction that's meant for me.
I kinda like seeing the place, how it's grown, and how it's helped me to grow. I have a great business background due to that place and position, and it's helping me today. It helped increase my love for different places.
It got me out of my comfort zone in many ways, even though I didn't like that part of it.
For all the bad at the end, there was a lot of good in the midst of it all.
When I look back, I truly am grateful. No resentments, no bitterness. Just gratitude.
God is so good in helping me to see it.